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Tuesday, June 03, 2008, 1:33:00 am
moving along. i don't feel as close to my other friends as before. maybe new cliques are formed, more people are entering my life and theirs- that we forget about one another. to no one in particular, but in general. i mean, i just feel niether here nor there. i dont have this bunch of friends that i go with ALL the time. yes, i have experienced it in secondary. you know, having a group of friends in chinese class, another in maths class, another during recess, and another after school? no? i am somewhat like that. it feels weird. cause its happening, again. sigh. i guess, its good to have many friends around. but like, it's so on the surface type? just a hi-bye thing that happens almost everyday. and when i try to make an effort to hang out with them, either they are not free or they have their own set of friends to go out with. either that, or i will feel super awkward when hanging around them. i know, people get close and have their own things to talk about. and yes, i will feel out and of course, i will just stone there and enjoy the cocktail on the table. ha. that's me. i really hate the feeling though. no, not the drinking part. now, i have my franco hang out friends. they are awesome shitballs. its funny how people keep asking "woah. franco gathering again ah?" i mean. we didn't really plan for it when we meet in school? we just see each other and there, click! we sit down and chill for a while before time is up to head to the classrooms. but i mean, its hard. hanging out with them means that i won't have time for my other friends. eg. iad mates and ying of course. (: i really hate the feeling. like, feeling so 'out' when i see them. of course i still do care for them and dont mind going out with them and all. but but but... sigh. i guess its rather irritating. to a point that i cant be bothered to do anything more? i just take it as it goes. if people wanna meet up with me, i'll go with the flow. if not, then why bother? i really dislike making the first move and boom. nothing happens, or i am being ignored time after time. who likes that feeling right? no, it's not that im pissed or anything. but i mean, the thing is, friends have to be understanding and all. yes, i admit that it's hard to keep a friendship going when you have so many close friends. chose? it will be hard and bias. i dont know. i feel distant from a lot of people. especially from church to start off with. Joannie bestie is always busy with school and softball- as always. i've gotten used to it to the extent that i will expect her to be either studying or softballing when i dont see her in church. sigh. i miss her. yes. i miss joanne gay. (: and other chruch people. they have their own things to do. honestly, if you church mates are reading this, so be it. no, i dont expect anyone to do anything about this situation. but, just think about it... my age group people in church- where are they? slacking away? doing their own things in their own daily lives? if so, what are the rest doing? going to church and all. going for events and youth outings. to me, why bother going when you feel so outcasted and unbelong to something you were once involved so much? yes. we are busy people. people make effort. but, i just feel thats not the way of approach things. on the surface, it seems so fake. to the extent that it disguise me. sorry. im just being really random. i've told my friends about my feelings and all- since parents are away and all. i can't speak up for anyone other than myself. i want to get more involved, dont get me wrong. but, i just feel thats its hard and i dont have that energy (anymore) to continue on. get what i mean? i see other youths and they are having tons of fun. esp paul's and amaris' church. ha. its hard to click back again. shit. im rambling on and on. sigh. well, one of those days. i just want to dance the nights away. ha. school is gonna be boring shitballs. trust me- as of this block for sure. |
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